Shooting off a quick update.

We got some not so happy news this morning. They finished with testing the fluid that they drained when Rebecca had been in the hospital. This in combination with the x-ray that was taken before they released her leads them to believe that the cancer may have spread to her lungs.

This would make some sense as she’s been experiencing discomfort in her chest when breathing or coughing, also breathing has not been the best lately.

They ordered a stat CT of her lungs to check for clots of fluid, we already got that back and she has fluid around both lungs. They’ve also already scheduled to get that drained next Thursday. (as a side note I just can’t say enough about the oncology team at Northwestern, they are amazing)

They also want a PET scan asap, so we’ll get one on Wednesday in Dekalb. This will help give a better idea of what is going on.

Treatment was cancelled for Monday as they want to change to a different chemo as the current one, it turns out, is not holding things back very well at all.

We don’t know much more than this, and I suspect we probably won’t have much more info until either end of next week or early the following week.

This isn’t information we were expecting, and the positive scan we received at the end of march led us to believe that we were going in a sideways or possibly even a slightly up direction. So this morning was a bit of a surprise and a very real reminder of the terminal-ness of this disease, and of timelines that were given to us.

Our wanted timeline is not God’s timeline, and it’s hard to come to terms with that, or maybe it’s more about being hard releasing that control that we only think we have.

I’m a big take it a day at a time kind of guy, so for now we just move on to the scans and procedures next week and we’ll see where that bring us. That being said I sure would appreciate prayers for strength for both of us as today was a bit of a smack of reality, and a small reminder of the road that lies ahead.